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a few thoughts, re: 2025

i spent a lot of this year dancing with stages one through four of grief, an endless promenade of emotions. i didn’t want to leave the dance floor, i didn’t want to sit down with Acceptance, who was waiting on the sidelines with a glass of water. i didn’t want to hear Acceptance say, “it’s time to rest.”

i was originally going to use this newsletter to air out my grievances from this year, but i’ve been weighed down by ghosts for far too long.

in 2025, i’m taking off my dancing shoes. i’m benching myself, lol. it’s time to rest and Accept the things i cannot change.

shoutout to the serenity prayer.

2025 is going to be a busy year for me. i’m going back to school (!), i’ve got lots of travel plans on the books (for work and play), and i’m hoping to expand my tarot reading practice.

in father john misty’s “mental health”, he sings, “the one regret that’s really pretty tough / is knowing i didn’t go nearly far enough.” i am hoping that, exactly one year from now, i won’t have that regret. i’m hoping that, in 2025, i run to the ends of my comfort zone and then some. i owe that to myself.

also, unfortunately, the new fjm album is very good and beautifully composed. i didn’t have high hopes for this album and it exceeded my expectations.

i think becoming an actual father has tempered fjm’s approach to songwriting. there’s still a good amount of ego but it’s less showy, i think. but he’s still got a lot to say! this feels like his wordiest album, i mean, starting this thing with a 10 minute track is bold. but it works, it feels like an epic poem. i can feel my attention span increasing with each listen, lol.

like i said, i’m going back to school but it doesn’t feel real yet. i guess it won’t until i’m in the classroom. but i’m looking forward to using my brain again! i’m looking forward to readings and assignments and discussions with people whose perspective is entirely different from mine. i know higher education feels like a sinking ship right now, but this feels like a ship i could go down with. going to college changed my life for the better and i will do my best to respond in kind.

i pulled 3 of Wands and The High Priestess as my tarot cards for next year. feel free to look up those cards and see if any of the meanings resonate with you. i can feel the uncharted energy of the 3 of Wands approaching, are the ships coming or going? who knows. i love how spacious this card’s landscape is. it symbolizes that anything is possible. i also love the figure’s strong body language, open chest, ten toes on ground, and relaxed shoulders. they’re taking it all in, getting ready for anything. i am, too.

i don’t want to write much else in regards to 2025. i want to let this year unfold the way it’s supposed to. i know what i’d like to accomplish and i’ll do my best to make it happen. i wish the same for anyone who reads this.

talk to you next year,